To my sweet baby boy,
Today marks 39 weeks and let me tell you, this pregnancy has flown! I cannot believe that your due date is just one week away. I hope that means we will get to hold you soon because we are beyond excited to meet the incredible baby boy who has been growing inside me this last 9 1/2 months!
I have been meaning to write your letter for a couple of weeks now but sitting down and getting uninterrupted time with you is not easy between your amazing big brother, daddy, Charly and all the work mommy has. This morning I decided to make sure I take the time to write to you though because you really should be coming soon and for that, I am beyond excited.
Right now I have Mickey Mouse Clubhouse on for your brother and he is in the middle of adding subtitles to it – guess he wants to start learning another language LOL. He is also running to our back door and looking outside while showing me his train tracks and trains. You are moving around, more like a rolling around compared to the jabby movements I use to get from your brother and feeling you move inside of me will always be one of my best memories.
It truly is incredible just how different your pregnancies have been for mommy. You have always been much more fluid in your movements. Not so much quick kicks and punches as just gradual twists and turns. At each of your checkups, your heart rate has been in the high 130s to low 140s; Samuel’s on the other hand was always a consistent 160s. Does that mean you will be my calm son? My more go-with-the-flow, happy-go-lucky little boy? Only time will tell and I cannot wait to see just who you are my sweet boy.
After everything we have been through this pregnancy – the scary way it started off, the motorcycle accident at 16 1/2 weeks, the terrible feeling following being told you were not growing the way you should – but then miraculously after every incident always finding out that you were still there, with a strong and steady heartbeat and healthy. You are strong my boy; physically and mentally strong. That makes me happy and thankful for so many reasons.
You already amaze me so much and without even having met you yet, I am in awe of the person that you are. I cannot wait to hold you in my arms for the first time. To see your beautiful face and hear your wonderful cry. To know that you are finally here and bring you home will change our family completely and in the best possible way. I cannot wait to see your brother become a big brother and to watch your father become a daddy to another precious baby boy and to see how much more gray hair Charly gets once we walk you in the door.
I pray for strength for myself because I know I will need it with two perfect little boys to raise. I pray that I can be the mom you need and deserve. I pray that you always know how much I love you; how much I have loved you since the moment I suspected you were growing inside me. You are an amazing little boy and I cannot wait to find out who you really are and watch you grow.
Well my precious son, it won’t (I hope) be much longer until you are here in my arms. Take your time though and know that mommy and daddy are ready when you are. You are loved beyond measure my sweet, sweet boy.
Forever and always,